End of July

 Well, I sat down to write but nothing is coming and my fingers won’t work typing today. But I am going to try

I took the kids and each of a friend to something called the Monster Bounce; its a big 23000 square foot bounce house. It was a little hot and Teddy and his friend went to the mall for an hour and then came and jumped. The girls and their friends took breaks but I think they had a good time. 

This past Friday we met up with some friends from Florida; they were here visiting for their grandsons wedding. They are an older couple and it was nice to see them. Macy is the age that I was when we first met them in Florida when we moved. I was kind of a little pest and not a nice youth, but they have moved passed that. I wish I could go back and change things but I cant.

Saturday I was suppose to go to a baby shower but I slept in and completely forgot about it. Sally went with her friend Emma out to a fun little place in Idaho Falls and then she stayed with them the rest of the day.

Macy and my friend C and I went up to West Yellowstone to the playmill. We say the production of Anastasia and it was fun. It was an hour and a half drive and on the way it was raining but we made it. On the way home we were driving carefully, we saw a few deer’s but we made it home. It was late like 12:45 when we drove in; I felt bad for Sally's friends family but I think they stay awake late anyway, so I made them some cookies today and will say thanks.

I think that is it. I am having a real hard time being patience with my kids. They hate each other and I am trying to get us better but its just not working. Teddy doesn’t understand that the little things he does affects the girls so strongly and then he freaks out when I try and talk to him, and then it escalates to him saying not nice things about the girls when he started it. Macy then does the same thing to Sally and then I am just at a loss as what to do for miss little one. I have missed a couple of days for the medicine but we got back on track and I hope it helps. I have got to set a timer on my phone to make sure she is getting it every night.

Most days I go to bed feeling like a complete failure; my husband hasn’t really been home for the month of July; so its been me doing everything. I hate that the weekends go so fast and Monday comes bright and early for me to have to site at my desk. Every time I took a break this past week it got harder to sit back at my desk. I know the pay check is good, but its hard. Anyway, that’s it.