Monday, December 18, 2023

Middle of December

I was so slacking this past week; its already Monday…the last week went pretty fast. Monday Sally started her testing and it was interesting, I will not know what the heck is going on until they do her full report at the end of the testing. I had some paperwork to fill out while she met with the lady; some questions were hard to answer but others were easy. She was being very shy in front of the tester but I know she gets anxious being put in new situations but then for the most part warms up. It happens at church all the time, she has had the best teachers this year. I am nervous for the new year and what it will bring. On a side note, I have been ready to be done with my primary teaching calling for a while, I have been in there for over 4 years and I am tired. We got a new primary presidency a couple of months ago and I know the old president had told the new one that I was ready to be done but she either wasn’t listening or didn’t care. So the old president has been texting occasionally to see if I was being assertive and speaking up. I finally texted the bishop and asked to see if I could be done. He said he would talk to the president and let me know, but I was just glad I spoke up for my needs and got the ball rolling. So anyway, back to the testing, I wish I could have been a fly on the wall to see what happened behind the closed door. I know Sally is such a smart girl and can be a very happy and kind girl when it benefits her, but at other times she is a complete mess. She seems to do okay in school, so I know that its just in our home. I hope we can get some answers.

Tuesday I met with my therapist and she didn’t mention the other counselor again, and we just worked through a few things. She gave me a handout about a cycle that I seem to be stuck in. She talked about where in the cycle I need to break and do better. I left feeling okay and I am going to keep trying.

Tuesday evening the girls had their family and friends singing performance at the elementary school. It turned out good, my sister in law and her mom came as well as one of Macy’s friends. I am glad that they like it.

I had it on my calendar that Sally’s testing was going to be Thursday but they called on Tuesday evening and said that it was going to be on Wednesday, lucky we didn’t have anything Wednesday and we were able to make it. I also had it that her appointment was going to be two hours but it only ended up being one; which was totally fine, I just didn’t have anything right in my calendar. Today I had a questionnaire of 175 questions to answer, again it was interesting. Since I am not able to be in the room with her while she is being tested, I am glad that I get to fill out something that will help them know how she is when she is at home.

Thursday the girls had two things going on; the first was their activity at the church. They were able to finish up some ornaments that they had made two weeks ago and then they were able to make some chocolate covered pretzels. I think they had a good time. After their activity they had a party at their dance studio where they watched a recording of their performance. My neighbor was able to bring them and that was really nice.  

Friday I had a hair appointment in the afternoon. Sally was able to go to a friends house and Macy played with some neighbors. Teddy had wanted to go to a friends house but none of his friends messaged me back. Sometimes that’s a little annoying, but I am guilty of that sometimes too. After my appointment we got ready and went down to Idaho Falls to the mall for the girls final singing performance. Macy’s schoolteacher and my friend Courtney were able to come and that was nice. The girls sounded great and it looked like they were having a great time.

We decided to go out to dinner after the performance. My husband really wanted to go to Chiles but they girls wanted Applebee’s. I was fine with either but the girls got what they wanted. It was good but pricey, when you are struggling with money, its always hard.

Saturday morning was a baptism of one of the kids in Sally’s church class. Macy really wanted to go but Sally told her she couldn’t. I have such a hard time with my girls and them being jealous, I wasn’t sure why Sally wanted to go by herself but I bribed her with a trip to the dollar tree if she let Macy go and it took her a minute, but she said yes. We picked up another girl from her class and went. It turned out nice. The lady that gave the talk on baptism, copied my sister’s talk from Sally’s baptism. She used the letters of baptism and talked about each letter and how its associated with the whole word. When you find something nice, you keep doing it.

I came home from the baptism and laid down not intending to fall asleep but I did and it felt so good. I did not want to get up a couple hours later but I know I needed to, I was able to get my kitchen and living room semi clean. Macy had a friend come over for a couple of hours in the afternoon and that was nice. After her friend left, I ran to our towns grocery store and grabbed two items for dinner for the family and then I ran down to Idaho Falls to Walmart. I had a few things to return and then get things for the upcoming week. I absolutely hate going shopping right now because everything is so dang expensive. What use to cost be less than 100 bucks now is over 200. It’s just so ridiculously crazy. Anyway, I got home and just chilled. I knew that I was going to have to get up early on Sunday, so I went to be earlier than I normally do on a Saturday night.

Sunday, Macy and I had to get up early to go to choir practice at the church. Teddy was awake when we left and I set an alarm on Sally’s ipad so that she would wake up my husband. They made it on time and Macy and I got to sing a song with the choir. It turned out good. I am glad that Macy had enough confidence to get up there with my and all the older people and sing her little heart out.

After I got home from church, I made the kids some dinner and then I made some pumpkin squares. We have been doing our neighbor gifts that last few weeks and there were a few people that I didn’t have a gift for, so we made some treats. I doubled the recipe and one of them got a little burned, but it turned out okay. I had a meeting with the bishop in the afternoon. He told me that the primary president was sad to be losing me but he would honor my request and be released from my teaching calling. He told me he didn’t want me to get dormant and sometimes that happens if you don’t have a calling for a while. I told him that I just needed a break and that I would still come to church. I am ready for a reprieve. I have been with the same kids for 4 years and I was just tired. So we shall see. I taught today and I was thinking that it will be my last one for a while, yes!!!

After my meeting I came home and we delivered some plates of the pumpkin squares, some people were not home and others were. Some I know were home but were probably taking a nap or something. I didn’t want to bring any plates home, so we brought two plates to two of Sally’s friends. It turned out good.

My friend Courtney came for dinner tonight; my husband had a meeting in the afternoon and I didn’t know when he was going to be home so while we waited for him we played some games. She brought yatzee and then we played this other Christmas game that my sister got us. We had a nice time. My husband got home and we got dinner made. We then just hung out. That’s about it.

Today is Monday and we only have three more days until Christmas break. It cannot come soon enough. We have lunch at the school today, tomorrow and Wednesday and I signed up to bring a treat Tuesday. I still don’t know what I am going to do, at first I was going to make some more pumpkin squares, but I still have half a pan now, so I was thinking that I might just go get some pumpkin bread from the store and put both of them on a platter. We shall see…

Tonight there is a dinner at the high school for teachers and their families; we were planning on going but then my husband realized he had a lesson during that time. So now I get to decide if I bring the kids by myself and he come at the end or I make dinner at our house. I wanted to push the dinner I was going to make to another day, but I don’t know if I want to go without my husband. I will check with the kids and we shall see…

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