December-First Week

Its been a week…holy cow the week seemed to drag and then be over at the same time. Its already Sunday evening again and the looming of a new week is upon us. The kids are outside in the backyard this afternoon and fighting and crying and I just don’t know what to do to help them. Sally does start her testing tomorrow and I am hoping something good can come out of it and we can get some answers.

My house is utter chaos and messy; I let Sally play in family in the living room yesterday and was gone most of the day, so it was so bad when I got home but didn’t want to tackle it. It is threatening to make me go insane, because I have such high intentions and expectations for myself that I ended up failing and feeling annoyed and mad. I need so bad to just let myself off the hook and give myself some slack. I love a clean house but I also like kids that get along too and I don’t have that either, so its really a lose lose situation for me.

Anyway, lets see if I can remember what went on this week. Monday Teddy had a wrestling match at home in Rigby but I convinced my husband to go to it. I had told him since I went to the tournament last week in Rupert, he could go to this one. I had a meeting with my dietitian and then got a text from my husband asking when I was going to be coming to the match, I guess I wasn’t clear when I said I wasn’t going to be going. I stood my ground and said I wasn’t going to be able to go. My husband said he wasn’t feeling great, but I still did not end up going.

I went to pickleball and was able to find a sub for Teddy who was still at the school with my husband. I am not sure what time they got home, but I was happy for a little break. When I got home, Sally was asleep but Macy wasn’t. She is having a really hard time right now going to sleep and staying asleep. I read some from her book and it seemed like she fell asleep but when I left, she called out and said she couldn’t. She ended up going downstairs and watching something with my husband, I went to bed and woke up in the morning to her sleeping on the couch. So I am not sure how much sleep she was able to get.

Tuesday the girls had a rehearsal at their dance studio, our neighbor was able to bring them and take them home because she had to be there the whole time. I was grateful.

Wednesday the girls had their last rehearsal for their singing and dance class. It was two hours, so I was able to go and play pickleball while they were there. It was great.

Thursday I volunteered to cook some funeral potatoes for our ward party; I didn’t have to make it or anything, I just had to take the pans from the gentleman that brought them and put them in the oven. The girls had their dress rehearsal at the middle school for their dance performance; they were able to go with the neighbor again. She also curled their hair for me. I just suck at doing hair and everything associated with girly things. I wish I could do it but its just not me. I was grateful for her.

I hadn’t planned on going to our ward party but after volunteering to do the pans of potatoes, I decided to go. My husband hadn’t been feeling good this week but he ended up going to an open gym for baseball and so it was just Teddy and me. He had a friend going, so he just hung out with him and I was really just on my own.

The primary sung two songs during the program and my girls were able to make it to that; my neighbor brought them to the church after their practice. Macy was so happy to make it in time to sing. Our music leader was sick, so she asked me and another lady to help out, it turned out good, they definitely had angels singing with them because one of the songs we didn’t know too well, but they did well. Santa came to the party and even though I think the girls know they we are Santa's helpers and he is not really coming down the chimney, they still wanted to sit on his lap. This year he was in a recliner chair and it was an ackward angle for a picture, I still took one anyway...

I made a dinner plate for my husband and then as I was leaving, there were some people in the kitchen, they said thy had a whole turkey that they were needing someone to take. I wasn’t really sure I wanted it but I said yes and took it home.

Friday after school Sally went over to play with a friend and Macy went to a neighbors. I was able to get some other work done. Teddy had his last wrestling practice today. I think he had a good time but I think he is also glad it is done. He is going to be doing some open gym/speed and agility after school now; I think he is looking forward to that.

Friday evening I was able to bring him to a friends house and he got to go to another ward party with them. I got the girls ready for their singing and dance performance. They will have three performance, today was at a local nursing home and it turned out really nice. Both the girls did great with their singing and their parts. They will have two more performances this upcoming week.

Saturday was a busy day; I set up an appointment to go to the temple at 11. I had planned to take Macy to a friends house in Idaho Falls but it ended up not working out. So Saturday morning I asked another friend if the girls could play. Normally it’s the friend that only has Sally play, when both my girls go together, they seem to not get along but today, they were going to go up to Rexburg to walk at the indoor track and they said the girls could come, I was grateful. My husband and Teddy were in Rexburg getting haircuts.

Teddy also had a party in Rexburg that was supposed to start at 2, but my husband ended up dropping him off at 10:30 and he just played until the party.

I was able to make it to the temple and then I ran to Sam’s Club and decided to try and run into the secondhand kids store to see if they had any clothes for the girls. I use to be able to find some stuff but I didn’t have the patience on Saturday, it was also crowded and traffic was bad, so I just wanted to get out.

I decided to not go home but go to Rexburg and run into the thrift store there; as I was driving up to get Teddy, he called and asked to stay longer. I let him stay for 30 more minutes but then had to get back to get the girls to the neighbors for her to do their hard for their dance performance. We made it just in time.

Their recital was entitled Born is the King and it was very nice. Both girls did a great job and I was proud of them. Macy was a wiseman servant and Sally was an angel.

That night after I got the girls down, I was able to do the dishes, I normally leave them for the morning or afternoon of the next day but I wanted to go to sleep Saturday night with a clean sink, the rest of the house though made up for a clean sink, it was bad.

So anyway, back to today. I did not want to get up this morning…the girls were up early and I got them breakfast and then laid back down. When the alarm rang I was not too happy. I got Teddy up and then had Macy wake up her dad. He wasn’t happy that we were late getting him up, whatev…I got the girls ready and then the kids and I left for church. My husband texted that he wasn’t feeling well and was going to stay home. I was already at church, so it really did not matter too much for me.

The kids did okay, Sally always has a hard time but I just try to keep my cool and try my best to help her.

After church we came home and Macy and I went to choir practice; this week went better than last. The director was able to find the song in English, yay.

After choir, I came home and made lunch for everybody. I then started working on our deliveries. We decided to go up to Rexburg today, but also had a few for people in Rigby. We left around 4 and delivered to some neighbors and then headed up north.

We first stopped at one of Teddy’s friends, it was an adventure. The roads have not been the best because of the snow and his friend lives at the bottom of a hill. I was going pretty slow but the turn came up too fast and I started sliding. I overcorrected and the car went down into somebody’s front yard, I took out some kind of wooden garden thing. I tried to back up but I wasn’t going anywhere, but I was able to go forward and get into the driveway of Teddy’s friend.

I got out of the car and fixed the neighbors wooden flower box and we went and delivered the gift. I asked them if their neighbor was nice and they said yes. I was on my way to knock on their door but they pulled up in their car. They were nice and said it was okay. Thank goodness it was nothing more, I am glad I didn’t take out a wooden or brick mailbox or run into a house. I am counting my blessing.

We then made some more deliveries and then came home. I had wanted to make a turkey soup with the leftover turkey from Thursday but it was too late when I got home and I just made some Chinese food, it turned out okay.

I was sorta semi able to get the living room clean; and I was able to get the girls asleep by 9:30. I wish I was going to bed with a super clean house tonight but I’m not. I am going to go to bed and wake up ready for a new week. We have 9 more days of school before we have two weeks off.

I had conflicting feelings today; I am not a huge fan of the holiday season and on one had I wanted it to go fast but then today I wanted things to slow down, I do not know where it came from but sometimes just the hype of the holidays comes with anxiety for me and then the let down after its over it hard too. I don’t know, I am weird but life it just coming from all sides and sometimes its more than I can handle but then I have to handle it and somehow we make it.