Its December

Monday came bring and early; my husband didn’t sleep well and called in sick. He wasn’t too happy that he had to do that, but that’s okay. That meant that I had to take Teddy to school, which wasn’t that bad. I told myself as I was getting ready for bed on Sunday that I wanted to go to the gym this week; but I was still wearing my jammies when I was taking Teddy to school. But on the way home from taking him, I told myself that I was going to go home, got to my room and put on my workout clothes that I had set out. Well I got home and went into my room and almost reset my alarm and laid back down, but I didn’t. I was proud of myself for getting my clothes and going to the gym. I only rode the bike and did some weights for my upper body, but I did it.

Monday afternoon I was able to meet with my dietitian after having a couple of weeks off. We worked on some exercises for me to try in hopes to get my nervous system in balance and thus helping my body heal. I am trying so hard to be open and perceptive of what she is teaching me and keep it going. This therapy is called working from the bottom up and not the top down. Its interesting, but I am grateful. Monday night we played pickleball, so it was a good work out day.

I ended up going to the gym each day this week, well Monday-Friday and it felt really good. I haven’t done that in a really long time, so I was happy at myself for getting up and doing it.

Tuesday I was able to meet with my counselor and it was interesting. I mentioned that a few weeks ago, I tried to get my tears to come, because they have been there right behind my eyes but they hadn’t come. Well today, I did cry a little bit, well not necessarily crying but kinds teary eyed; we talked about the stress of the holiday season and it just adds to my heighted stress that I always seem to have. She told me that she had an impression to see if I wanted to work with a different counselor that works with a different type of therapy; she mentioned that she didn’t want me to think she was trying to get rid of me, but that is how it felt. I was kind of sad as I was leaving, I told her that I would think about it. I have done some research and it seems like a cool different approach, but I don’t want to start fresh with someone new. Maybe that is my problem that I am comfortable and not making much progress, but I think I can keep doing with her what we have been working on and maybe I can do it. I don’t know, I am so conflicted. I wish I could do both of the, once each week. Well see.

Teddy had a wrestling meet; I was running a little late because I had to stop by the UPS store in Idaho Falls to drop of some returns. Well the store was crazy packed and I was late getting to the middle school but he hadn’t wrestled yet and when I had sat down, he came up and told me that he might not even have a match because there wasn’t a kid his weight from the other school that was on JV. We waited and he kept telling me that he kind of wanted to go home but his coach said they would find someone for him to wrestle, even if it was from his own school. Well after two and a half hours of waiting, he got to wrestle a kid from his school. He did good and pinned him. For the past month, he has been wrestling in the 121 weight group, but when he was sick he lost some weight and is not 116. The next weight down is 115 and he said he wanted to try for that. I told him that I didn’t want him to cut weight, he could eat good and work out and see if he could, but not really try. So well see…it was a long afternoon

Wednesday I had to take my husband down to Idaho Falls for his follow up appointment with the ENT. He was able to get his stents out and he was happy about that. His appointment was the same time as Macy’s dance, but I was able to find her a ride. Very grateful. I was also about to find a good deal on a new laptop, so we stopped at Walmart and I was able to pick it up. I hope that no water damage will occur on this new one. It was such a freak accident back in the spring. It had been okay with my sharing my husbands laptop, but I was happy to be able to get my own.

Also, because I used the same log in with Microsoft, I was able to get back some documents from before. When the previous laptop busted, I was able to the data off onto a jump drive too, so I have it all now. I was able to get it set up and working.

Wednesday night, the girls had their first rehearsal for their singing and dance class, so they were meeting from 6-8 instead of 7-7:50, I was able to go to the church and play pickleball from 6:30-8.

Thursday the girls had activity days and that was nice. AND ITS DECEMBER

Friday after work and school, the girls went over to a friends house. This is normally the friend that just Sally goes to but Teddy and I were going to the temple, so Macy asked if she could go. I really did not want both girls to go, they normally fight and it gets embarrassing but Macy begged and Sally said it was okay. I dropped them off and then went to get Teddy from practice. Then we picked up one of his friends who came with us.

I am glad that Teddy likes to go to the temple and I am glad he had a friend because there were only three other girls from our ward that went. It didn’t take too long and we went out for a treat afterwards. We went to Twisted Sugar, it is similar to the other drink and cookie shops that we have around but they had many more option. They had over 10 different cookies and lots of drink options and Teddy and his friend got milkshakes, Teddy also tried a cookies and cream cookie, it looked yummy…I have been trying to be good, so I did not have anything, but maybe one day I can try it.  

After coming back from Idaho Falls, I dropped Teddy off at his friends house and picked up the girls. I made some dinner and then headed down to Idaho Falls again to my friend Courtney’s house. She was hosting a painting night and I told her that I would go.

It turned out to be nice; we had some appetizer and some treats and then we did a beginner youtube video of a canvas painting of a snowman. I did not think that I was going to be able to do it and was hesitant when she first asked but I think I did an okay job for my first time, I deviated some from what the lady on the screen did but the other ladies that were there did it more like she had it. Either way it was fun

I did not get home till late and had to wake up early to go to a wrestling match for Teddy. Our whole family was going to go but Sam decided to stay home with the girls. Because it was late already when I got home, he volunteered to take Teddy to the school at 4:45 in the morning and then go back to sleep. I was grateful.

I jolted awake at 5:02 and was scared that he might have forgotten but I went downstairs and Teddy was gone. I went back to sleep until 7:00 and then I got up and got ready. His tournament today was over in Rupert at Minico High School. This is the same high school that my mother went to, kinda fun. I contacted my aunt and uncle who still live there but they had a busy day today, and I guess so did we.

Teddy had 4 matches and went 2-2; he is a good sport and I think he had a good time. I was able to read some and the rest was kind of boring but we made it. He and I had dinner at Costa Vida; I got the soup and it tasted good. I also ordered some chips, queso and guacamole and was okay eating it. I also had a bite of his key lime pie and I felt okay.

I was a little worried about the roads today, but they were okay. There were only a few times that I had to slow down and on the way home it was drizzling, so I couldn’t use cruise control, but we made it. I had given myself longer to drive home, so I was happy when we got home at 8:45 instead of 10…

I really did not want to go to the store, and I started a little list but then realized that we had everything for burgers for Sunday. Yay. I was able to take a shower and wash my hair and then get into some comfy clothes.

Near the end of the wrestling tournament, my right ear started to get cloudy and it starting to hurt, by the end I couldn’t hear out of the ear and it was aching so bad. I don’t know if I have ever had an ear ache as an adult but it makes me feel for kids that get them all the time; it hurts. So anyway, it hurt all the way home and then my jaw started hurting. By the time I got home, I was not feeling good, I did not do much in the evening and I just sat in bed and actually fell asleep sitting up with the towel in my hair.

Before I laid down, I took some cold medicine and I didn’t get a restful sleep, and wasn’t sure this morning when I woke up if I was going to go to church, I was really stuffed up and was coughing some. But I looked at my phone and one of the other teachers for our class said that she was not feeling well and wasn’t going to make it. So I sucked it up and got ready. I was worried I was going to have a coughing fit, but it went okay.

It was the first Sunday today, so it was testimony meeting; you know what I was sitting there thinking I might bear my testimony but I knew I didn’t really have a voice and its been like 20 years since I got up during a testimony meeting. I gave a talk once in Rexburg and then here in Rigby but its not really the same to me. I really do hate getting up in front of people and so when the person got up to end the meeting I was kind of relieved but at the same time, I have been on my own little journey and I have been learning a lot. I do not know anything but there are things that I am coming to believe. Maybe someday I will get up and share what I have been learning.

Anyway, I had every intention to come home and sleep but we had choir practice today after church and even though I cant sing very good, Macy wanted to go. I do like Christmas music but our choir director is a little different and picked a song that no one knew. Its actually in the German hymnbook but not in ours; when we first got to the practice he played the song sung by the tabernacle choir and of course it sounded great but it didn’t go too well when we tried.

Our pianist isn’t confident in herself even though she is super awesome but she did her best. We ended up making copies of the song from the German hymnbook and sang the song counting the beats and he said he was going to try and find the song in the hymnbook form and not the choir form that he brought. Well see what happens the next two or three weeks. Our choir director is very musical talented and sometimes is a little ambitious when it comes to what he wants to sing and I think he needs to tone it down a bit and realize that we all are not that good and we need simple. We will try though.

When I got home, I made the girls some lunch and instead of going to try and get some rest, I worked on our neighbor Christmas gifts. I wanted to deliver some today and we needed to do it earlier because there is a church Christmas devotional tonight and last year, instead of watching it, we were delivering some gifts and it interrupted some people who were watching it, whoops. Maybe this year I can turn in on the TV.

While I was getting everything ready, my husband texted me that he wasn’t feeling great and thought it was coming down with something. I just had to roll my eyes. Literally in the almost 15 years we have been married, each time I have gotten sick or not been feeling good, he will come down or say he is coming down with something. Its like clockwork and so annoying. Anyway, whatever

We had 21 things to deliver today and only 3 of them were not home. I was happy to get so many done and its only the 3^rd of December. I have more people on our list than I have of our particular gift, so I think some people I am going to make some treats and drop them off. Next week we will try and hit up a few people from Rexburg, I like that we still live close enough to keep in touch, even if its only a few times a year.

Anywho, after we got home, the kids really wanted to go out in the snow. So I went into the garage and got the bin full or their stuff. It was a chore to get it out and all ready and on but they went out and had a good time. I listened to some Christmas songs and did the dishes and tried to clean some.

I sorta watched the Christmas devotional, my husband cooked up the burgers and I got everything else ready. Now, I am ready for bed and its only 7:40, it gets dark so early that I am so tired by the time the 7oclock hour rolls around. Sally decided she wanted to take a shower on her own and wash her hair, yay and the older kids are watching a show downstairs. My husband left to go to the school to set up something.

I am not ready for a new week, the weekends seem to go so fast and it didn’t help that I was gone Saturday from 7am to 9pm; but a new week is upon us and there is nothing I can do about it. I hope that I can get up again this week and get dressed and go to the gym, I had an interesting moment this week. I have been trying to eat better and I went to the gym every week day but I tried on three pair of pants that fit Thanksgiving week and they were too small, it was sort of depressing. I am trying to be good and do the things that I need in order to keep healing and what not and then this happens and I have so many thoughts come through my head. I will do my best to push those thoughts away and keep trying my best to keep on going.

This upcoming week is a busy one with dance and singing rehearsals and performances, I kind of like it when it when we have things going on because it keeps me on my toes and not wanting to just lie in bed and do nothing, which is what I normally wish I was doing. So here is to the new week!