We Made It!!

We made it through another week and this week I do not have much to say. 

We did not have school on Monday; it was a personal development day for the teachers, so Sam had to go into work; but the kids and I stayed home. We still got up early and read but then I went back to bed. I have definitely been in a little rut; I try and be in bed before 10 every night and most of the time I am but I am so tired all the time. Its not like a I need to sleep tired, it’s like a chronic fatigue and fog that I cannot get out of. I know that I need to go to the gym after I drop of Teddy in the mornings but right now I have been coming home and sleeping for the hour; I need to muster up the motivation to go. I think its hard too because I gained over half the weight that I lost last year and it’s disheartening. I was so strict and rigid with my eating and exercise that the moment we went on our trip during the summer and coming home, I just gained and gained. Living in a larger body is so hard; but I guess being anorexic was hard too. I feel like in my life, I have either been anorexic or overweight; I have not stayed in the middle very long; its either one extreme or the other and I am so tired of it. Maybe this week I can make the start to being healthier; go to the gym, eat a balanced diet and watch the sweets. I think I can do it. 

Last week I got a text from a lady in our ward that was putting together a girl’s night; they wanted to go to a movie at 9:30 at night. I wanted to get out of the house, but it was so late. At the last minute I decided to go; we saw the movie about Whitney Houston called I Wanna Dance with Somebody. I left the house at 8:45 and got home at 12:45; it ended up being nice, but I was so tired Friday morning at 6:45 when we got up to read; I think I fell asleep but at least I got up and went out in the living room. 

Saturday Teddy had his first real basketball game and did a great job. His team won. After his game he and Sam got to go to the temple to do baptisms. He was the only young man from our ward to go with three young women. I am glad he got the opportunity to go. I might have a hard time with a few aspects of the church; I do have a belief in God the Father and Jesus Christ. I am grateful for them and that is the basis of what I believe it. I have had prayers answered and felt the spirit in my life. I could write more on the topic, but I won’t right now. 

I was able to get our house clean as well; and it was so nice to wake up today to everything picked up and looking nice. When the alarm rang this morning I was sad, it felt like I had been asleep for an hour or less but we made it. Church was hard today; Sam didn’t wake up to come; he said he wasn’t feeling well. So, it was just the kids and I and they were not that great. I am having such a hard time with my kids. They fight constantly and just get on each other’s nerves; it is a constant battle, and I am at a lost as what to do. I just hope that they can come to tolerate each other and one day be friends, that is my hope. 

Today for dinner we were planning on having Philly Cheesesteaks and I was excited; but after coming home from church, I checked the bread in the cabinet that had looked okay on Friday and today it has some mold on it. I am not the happiest camper and I know Sam is bummed too. We will make it work but its just annoying. 

Well there you have it; this upcoming week we do not have school on Friday, so I am happy for another 4 day work and school week. Yay, I will keep trying do my best and that is all I can do. Thanks for reading along this journey with me