Its July!!!

 Its dang July; can you even believe it. I really can’t. The thing is, I don’t want it to be July…I want it to still be June; the summer is just going so fast and I want it to last forever. I love not having to work and I wish I never had to do it again. I wish we had money for me to just be a mom and a house maker. I wish I had time to keep up with the housework and read more. My meager salary doesn’t help much, but we need it. We are barely scrapping by and I try not to let it get me down. I have a lot to be grateful for but man, its hard. 

This week went pretty fast. Monday Teddy got asked to play for the same team he played in the tournament with last week. He loves playing with this team, and he is hoping that maybe next year, he will tryout for it. So anyway, as we were getting ready to go to his game, Teddy asked where his arm sleeve was. I had no idea, so I told him to check downstairs, he said it wasn’t there. I then told him to check the couches upstairs because that is the last place I remember seeing him have it. So he takes off the cushion on the left side of the small couch and nothing, and then he takes off the right side and guess what, his arm sleeve was not there but the lost Ipad was. Seriously, I was dumbfounded. I had searched that couch maybe 20 times and it was never there. And now it was. I immediately said a prayer of gratitude. Like I said last week, I had searched for it I felt like everywhere and could not find it. We still didn’t find the arm sleeve but Teddy was okay. He did really good in the game. In the 6 or 7 games he has played for this team, he as batted 1000; its crazy, he has so much more confidence. Anyway, after the game we came home and he found the arm sleeve in his dirty clothes; haha. 

Tuesday we took the kids to the bank; well Sally stayed home but Teddy and Macy came. Teddy has been earning some money by umpiring and wanted to open a bank account. It ended up taking forever; we waited for a good 30 minutes for the right teller to open up and then the lady was slow; Sam related her to the sloth at the DMV in Zootopia, haha. Teddy went out and sat in the car and Macy counted some money; we finally got it all taken care of. We opened up a missionary savings account for the kids too; well see how it works out. We wont put much in, but some each month. 

So Wednesday, I played pickleball with some ladies at the church. My friend Courtney has been coming and it is so fun. I love it. After playing for a couple of hours, we came back home. She come over for a little bit. Teddy was going to go with a friend to the hot springs but they cancelled. Another friend had asked if he could come over and so we brought him over. The girls had a fun activity to go to from 1-4; they rode with our neighbor, so Courtney and I went to Wendy’s for lunch. It was her birthday the next day, so I treated her. She then went home and I went over to see how the girls were doing. A family in the ward hosted a ton of kids and the girls had a blast. While Courtney and I were driving to Wendy's from dropping off Teddy, my check engine light came on in my car. I looked at her and just almost started crying. I say almost because I haven't really cried in a really long time. I am almost void of emotion. Sometimes I wish I could have a big cry, but it doesn't come. Anyway, I was just dumbfounded that something else might be wrong. I said a quick prater and the car ran okay. Thursday, the check engine light turned off and hasn't turned back on. I am grateful, I do not know how much more I can take...

Thursday Macy had her last softball games; they did well. She got a hit and made it home and she loves that. After the game we came home. Sally has been wanting a party ever since her birthday. Since it was right before payday, we weren’t able to have it on her actually birthday, and I really wished that she would have forgotten about it, but she kept asking. So I booked a bounce house for Thursday and we texted some of her friends. A lot of them were able to make it. So, I wish to say that it was a success, but it really did not turn out that great. I am just not a good party host. I only really thought about the bounce house and that was it. Thursday before the party we went and got cupcakes and I thought maybe I would make something they could eat; so I bought some bread and made three different kinds of sandwiches and cut them up into fourths. 

So, the day ended up being warmer than we would have liked it and the kids said the bounce house was too hot. I didn’t have really anything else to do, so the kids just kinda ran around. We tried to put on a movie downstairs but it kept glitching. One little girl asked to go home after an hour and I felt bad. Sally started butting heads with some of her friends and had a meltdown every few minutes. It was pretty bad, that I had to call most of the parents to come early. I should have had the party from 1-3 but I put 1-4 on the text, because that is the time we scheduled for the bounce house. Most of the kids were picked up by 3:30. I feel bad for everyone, I think Sally was overstimulated and most of the friends couldn’t stand the way she was acting. I really need to figure out how to help her. 

She met with a counselor during the school year, but I do not think that he did a good job. After the first session he had already told me that he had a diagnosis for her; Oppositional defiant disorder. Now, don’t get be wrong, I think she had some attributes for ODD but after talking to my sister, she said it should take a lot longer to diagnose a child with something. I went to her first two sessions with her and it was weird; but I didn’t say anything. The counselor then met with her at the school during the year; I wish I could have been there to see what he was teaching her. She would come home and be happy that she had met with the counselor but nothing really changed. I think I am a big stressor for her and I am trying my hardest to keep my cool and not get upset. Sometimes I think she is borderline bipolar; she is so hot and cold, night and day, manic and depressed. It just seems to be getting worse and like I said, I have to get on the ball about figuring out how to help her. 

Teddy finished up his regular season of baseball last week, but this weekend was his last tournament. He was not looking forward to it; he has tried really hard but has just sorta checked out. Sam took him down to Pocatello on Thursday morning. They played two games and lost both of them. After getting home, Sam said he wasn’t feeling good, so he rested. Friday, his game wasn’t until 6 pm, so we had the day to be home, I trudged along trying to get the house clean. Sam still wasn’t feeling good so I took him to his game. The team started out playing really good; a lot of the boys who haven’t gotten a hit in the while, did and that was great. But it was not meant to be, we were winning 10-2 going into the last inning and the other team scored 8 runs, so the game ended up in a tie. Teddy was so sad.  Saturday their game was at 8 in the morning, so they had to leave the house at 6:15, so early. Macy went on Friday and Saturday, so it was just Sally at home both days. I stayed home with her on Saturday and I slept in. I am not doing a good job of getting up early. 

Saturday after they got back, Macy went to play with a friend and Teddy went with a teammate to the lake. One of Macy’s friends called to see if she could go to the hot springs but since she was gone, Sally ended up going instead. They then came to our house to play for a little bit. After they left, I took Sally over to the friends that Macy was at, and we watched the fireworks. Each Independence Day, our Jefferson County Lake holds a celebration. It is always the Saturday before the 4^th. It turned out really good, we watched the fireworks from the yard and it was nice. 

Saturday, we also tried to get our tile in the bathroom replaced. We redid out bathroom in 2020 during the COVID 19 pandemic when we were stuck at home. A little while later, the tiles in the bathroom started to come up; we have walked on uneven tiles for 3 years. Its so ghetto; my dad always asks if he can help us and Sam gets frustrated. Well the last time they were here in December, he asked again and we checked out the tiles and we didn’t think they could be salvaged, so we bought new ones. They have been in a box at the house for 6 months. Well today we mixed up the cement and opened up the box. The order that I had, has 14 new tiles. We were a couple short, so we were going to have to use some of the old tiles. Well, anyway, we start laying down the cement and use the old tiles and then bring in the new times, and guess what, they were not the exact same size, they were probably a half of an inch bigger than the other ones, so we were not able to use them. We already had wet cement on the floor, so we just ended up putting back in the old tiles and it looks so bad. Sam is not convinced that they will even hold up. We couldn’t use the bathroom for 24 hours, so we put up a sign to not use it and we have a couple of more hours still we will see how it looks after drying. I wish we had the money for a professional to come out, but we are so in the hole right now, so we won’t be able to do it. 

We didn’t get to bed until late and this morning came bright and early. I wasn’t as tired as last week. I went to wake up my husband and he said he wasn’t feeling well and was not going to go. Fine, whatever-but when he doesn’t go, Teddy and Sally also don’t want to go. I usually wont pressure them to come, but there is a little older lady in our ward that always mentions it to me when Teddy doesn’t come, because he is not there to pass the sacrament. I shouldn’t really care about what others think, but sometimes its hard. I told him that he didn’t have to go. At first Sally told me she didn’t want to go either but I remembered that I had set up her baptismal interview after church, so I told her she had to go. She took her sweet time, and we were late and it was rough. She is having such a hard time; we made it through thought. I was able to find Macy a ride home from church and then Sally and I waited. We got out of church at 11 and our appointment was for 11:15 but of course, they were running late. Usually the bishop has to do the interview, but he was not able to and they found a way for another member of the bishopric to do it. It went okay, Sally was able to answer some questions and practice as well. I hope it all works out okay. 

Tomorrow starts a family reunion for my family. We are meeting up in Rexburg at my brothers’ house for a couple of days. We normally have to go back and forth because we only live 20 minutes south; but we got invited to stay up with the family. My kids are excited. Well the girls are, Teddy not so much. He takes it after his dad, Sam is not going to come the whole time. He would probably be cranky anyway, so he will hopefully come up on the 4^th of July. Anyway, that’s it.