Bummer

 Well I was happy this week because I knew spring break was coming. I knew if I got through this week, I was going to have 9 days without work and not having to wake up early. This week went pretty fast; and its only Saturday night and I normally write on Sundays but needed to get out some emotions this evening through writing. My car has been giving me issues, the people at the auto shop know me by name and without a doubt I give them a call or go in each month for something new. Well I was planning on bringing it in next Wednesday after my husband leaves out of town because my steering has been off and I probably need a new hose or something. Well this evening, after I got the girls down for bed, I decided to run to the grocery store. I was backing out of the driveway and heard some crunching sounds; I thought I was running over something, so I stopped and pulled forward and backed up again. Turns out the crunching sound was my front bumper and grill getting town apart from my car. I mush have got it caught on the chain link fence or something. I got out of the car and looked at the damage and it is bad, like real bad; I was just dumbfounded and it still hasn’t hit me. I want to ugly cry but nothing is coming out. I am past feeling and that is really hard. I know this is going to cost a boatload of money to get fixed, if it can be fixed at all. I am so shocked and I think I am sad, but I am not feeling anything at this point. Its like I cant catch a break and I don’t know what to do. I have been having a hard time in my personal life with some things and I feel like God is punishing me for my actions. But deep down I know that that is not the case, God did not cause my bumper to fall off, its all my fault but its easier to blame someone else. Anyway, I will have to call the auto place and see what I can do. I hope its fixable because I still owe a lot of money on this car and it would be devastating if it cant be fixed. So there you have it.